All you want is a life of peace and freedom, my Butterfly.
Well – at least that’s what you think you want.
Evidence shows otherwise.
That evidence is the results in the form of your life so far – and here you are, social anxious, and ruled by fear.
You wish that you could wave a magic wand and be instantly cured.
In a snap of your fingers – all of these intrusive thoughts, thumping heart and that paranoid feeling that everyone is looking at you and judging you – gone.
You might think that sounds wonderful.
Like every dream would come true.
But the truth is:
You would go into an energetic freefall, like a skydiver falling from a plane.
Because gravity is a law of life on planet earth.
If you go so high into the atmosphere that there no longer is gravity – you will run out of oxygen.
Another law of life here on earth.
These laws literally hold your cells together and prevent you from dispersing into the atmosphere.
“As above, so below”
So just like there are natural laws that govern your body externally, there are laws that work internally within your body as well.
And in particular – there is a certain way that your brain operates to keep you on an even keel.
Your social anxiety is actually a survival mechanism.
Can you believe that?
It’s not a sign that your brain has stopped working.
It’s a sign that your brain is fine.
So what’s gone wrong here?
Your threat perception levels are in overdrive.
You are on high alert – always- for any danger to your peace and quiet.
You’ve been in preservation-mode for so long that it is now your default.
Your brain is trying to keep you safe.
So it will make up any sort of story, conscious or subconscious, to keep you exactly where you are.
Nice and safe.
And fearful of everything that will grow you.
So why aren’t you happy?
It’s because your soul longs for growth.
Your soul longs for experience.
So it’s this tug-of-war between your animal-brain and your spirit.
Your spirit will ultimately win.
One day, the pain of staying where you are will get so bad that you will do anything it takes to grow.
You will understand that it might feel scary for a while.
That your cells might get that freefalling feeling while they adjust to new boundaries and beliefs.
You will recalibrate what life means to you.
You will reassess what you will and won’t tolerate.
Not from a victim’s stance – but from a creator’s stance.
Because, whether you want to believe it or not, you ARE creating your life, each and every day.
And every day, you have a choice.
Yes, you do.
Even if you feel like you don’t.
Continue as you are?
Safe and scared as hell?
Or will you step into the great unknown, trusting in the guidance of the support team you’ve pulled around you?
I’ll be here when you are ready to take this step.
Love + light