20 years ago, if I could have seen myself helping so many people overcome anxiety issues, I never would have believed it.
I’d always been anxious and I have very strong memories of intrusive thoughts and panic attacks far back into my childhood.
Things escalated in my teens, and I was diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder at age 22.
At age 24, on a plane trip, I felt a twitch in my right arm, and then my arm from the elbow down went numb.
This numbness and tingling spread progressively up my arm and then over the next two weeks spread further until my entire body was a tingling, throbbing mess of nerve endings.
I went to see a doctor (not my usual doctor), who said very bluntly “I think you have multiple sclerosis.”
Well. That triggered the worst, longest, hardest panic attack of my life. It lasted 6 weeks.
I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t concentrate and all I could do was obsess about having an illness.
I was terrified. Constantly. Waiting for medical tests, and the result of the medical tests, was torture.
This is where my story gets interesting.
It was during this protracted anxiety meltdown, that the Archangel Michael appeared to me one night.
I had been trying to sleep, and I was in a fitful state of delirium.
It felt like my soul was trying to escape my body – as if I was floating a few feet above myself.
And then, a really, really, really tall guy appeared next to my bed.
“Sit up,” he said.
So I sat up.
“Turn and sit on the edge of your bed, with your feet flat on the floor,” he instructed.
So I did that.